At last I can write about something I have had to keep quiet about for the past few days. Couldn't write about it as not all the family knew and didn't want to risk anyone finding out by reading it here before being told.
Anyway, my son came over to visit a couple of nights ago saying he had something to tell me! Well as you can imagine all things began to whizz around in my mind, (he is 25 by the way) and I began to feel very unsettled! So I asked him to just hurry up and tell me which he began to do with a large grin on his face - he said, "I'm getting married, we are having a kid and I'm leaving the country!" Wow! I was not prepared for how strange I would feel at that monment, I was totally in shock, but he still had this grin on his face which made me feel I had not heard the whole story or at least something was not as he had said...
So I begged him to continue, to give me the whole story, to explain more as I was not even aware he was seeing anyone... his next sentence threw me into even more of a state. he said that not all of the 3 were true, that only 1 was and that I should guess which one it was!
That was very difficult and oddly I said that I didn't think he was leaving the country, he was surprised, and then said that I was wrong because that was it, he is leaving the country.
He has been offered a job in Dubai, starting as soon as he can possibly get organised and get over there. I hoped he would say it was for a 6 or 12 month contract, but no it's actually a permanent contract.. so he could be gone for a long time. Now that's quite a difficult feeling to get used to, the first of my children living abroad. It was bad enough when he went away to uni a few years ago and that was only about 250 miles away!
I'm sure he will do well over there and things will be fine, it's just going to take a while for it to sink in and I'm going to miss him so much..
One good thing I guess is the possibility of holidays in Dubai :)